Heartache Overload

2011-01-18T03:07:00.000+09:00

this is the polaroid thing im talking about lah melody

2011-01-13T01:41:00.001+09:00

YOU FUCKED UP FUCKING LIAR.

Once upon a dream,

2010-10-25T02:57:00.003+09:00

So I was suppose to finish SRJ math paper 1 and 2 but ended up watching sleeping beauty on youtube.

AND I SCREWED OR WHAT.

sigh.I HATE THE FEELING I GET AFTER WATCHING FAIRYTALES.

its like the whole true love, beauty and live happily ever after stuff is fake.

I blame it on disney who disillusion kids into thinking that everyone will grow up into their own happily ever after.

so annoyed.

NOW I WISH I HAD A HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

but i guess mine would only be doing well for As and that cant be done without very very very (x 1000000000000000000) preparation.

but my preparation is like epic fail.sigh.FAIL.

Night, everyone.

karma chameleon

2010-10-18T18:24:00.002+09:00

So, I'm gonna do this gossip girl style.

Hi R, so i heard from D you read my previous post which i have already deleted.

Thanks for your concern.really.

I didnt expect anyone to be reading my blog since it died like a year ago and i only revived it recently cos I felt like it and I needed an outlet.

Thats why i could type so freely and not bother about anyone reading it.lol.

You and D must take care of each other ah!

18 with a bullet .

2010-10-17T01:37:00.001+09:00

I feel miserable.

and its not so much of you this time.

Its just everything.

Not a big fan of holding hands,but thats a lie.

2010-09-27T02:17:00.002+09:00

Hi me,im back again.

I deleted my previous post.

ha ha.

its 1.17am and i have school in about 6 hours?

oh joy.this is so damn effing depressing.

wanna know why?

cos it means going back to the whole same old routine, feeling depressed and dumb.

sigh.plus i might most probably get back answers/papers tomorrow.

and i might just end up being really moody if i get less than decent results which i most probably will.

at least,i got someone to accompany me tonight, CONNIE.

love that girl.

well,im signing off.bye me.i hope things wont turn out so bad this week.

She made her way to the bar.

2010-04-07T23:28:00.002+09:00

All the things she does. Make it seem like love. If it's just a game. (Just a game) Then I like the way that we play.

WATCH THIS.

2010-04-03T01:05:00.000+09:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Lb_sfdylkw&feature=related

THIS.IS.SO.FACKING.FUNNY.
YOU H.A.V.E TO WATCH IT!!

Semi-Charmed Life.

2010-03-28T17:35:00.004+09:00

Don't you think she's so pretty?
And I dont even know who she is, some random ang moh girl on tumblr.LUCKY.

afiqah you genius, you didnt leave your link down how to relink?!
Anyway, looking at f21 and topshop models makes me wanna go on EXTREME diet. ):
Maybe I should start diet operation next week (feels like i mentioned this countless times in my blog) LOL.
I swear i lost weight then gained back during the study period.pffffffffff.
Told you studying and gaining weight has a direct relationship.
JC IS MAKING ME MISERABLE.

MBTS ARE OVER.

2010-03-25T20:40:00.000+09:00

I LIKE HER OUTFIT.

This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson .

2010-03-15T21:18:00.001+09:00

OH.MY.GAWD.
SHE'S SO HOT!
I would have a lesbian crush on her if I was lesbian.Totally.
Gonna paint my nails later ;D

One more sad song,

2010-03-10T22:37:00.001+09:00

I.WANT.THIS.

We are the misfits .

2010-03-06T18:32:00.001+09:00

FIRST FOR MASCOT RACE!
ALRIGHT ALRIGHT!
I'm happy enough cos all the hard work for mascot paid off.
As for competitive running, that has to do with the runners in our house and not us.
SO IM HAPPY ENOUGH.YAY.
colosseum here we come ;D

I never thought I'd catch this lovebug again .

2010-02-21T01:05:00.001+09:00

I WANT SOME TOPSHOP SKIRT I SAW YESTERDAY AT BUGIS.
Got a million shit things to do.SUCK.
Doing work was rather productive today.yay.
BUT I STILL HAVE ALOT TO DO.wah lao.
Its never ending.then again, whats new right?
Welcome to my life.

You used to call me your angel .

2010-02-18T23:18:00.003+09:00

I dont feel like blogging much recently.

We came down to watch the world walk by.

2010-02-14T03:15:00.002+09:00

LOL.so which one are you?
Was suppose to stay up to do work and at the same time shou ye (its a chinese new year tradition, the longer you stay up, the longer your parents live)
BUT IM YAWING EVERY ONE HOUR.so much for staying up now huh.lol.
Anyway, Happy Chinese Valentine's Day New Year people!Enjoy yourselves. (:
I know I wont.well, not that much anyway.

I can finally see the truth, it's me for you .

2010-02-12T21:09:00.003+09:00

I WANT MY COTTON ON DENIM VEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its slightly similar to the one in the picture.
HOT RIGHT?!wah lao.
Mas and Yap say that i'm extra happy/perky these days.
R-E-A-L-L-Y?

NOT HAVING FUN DOING GP ESSAY.

2010-02-10T00:32:00.001+09:00

Today:

1.My nose bled FOUR times. (I might die from blood loss soon.)
2.I coughed more than usual.
3.GP ESSAY!!!!!????????
4.I have to finish the whole of carbonyl and abit of carboxylic (SUCKFEST TO THE CORE)
5.MATH TEST.(where got time to study)
6.Be in school by 7.15am tomorrow for house meeting.
7.Not in that much of a good mood anymore.

pfffffffffffffffffffft.
Life is wonderful *cough*

If you don't wear pink on thursdays, you cant sit with us at lunch .

2010-02-09T01:16:00.003+09:00

reblog from ilovemightnight.tumblr

AND HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA EPIC MUCH.
25 FEB 2010, BRING IT ON.
DONT FORGET, NO MYSPACE .

Our Love is the perfect crime .

2010-02-09T00:04:00.003+09:00

-reblogged from partaychicken.tumblr.com (sorry luh i got no tumblr so can only do this.LOL.)

Anyway, the words in the picture are really well put.

Heartache Overload .

2010-02-06T22:11:00.001+09:00

AM SO ANNOYED.
#$%^&*()#$%^&*()W$%^&*()#$&*)_@#$%^&*()%^&*()W$%^&*()$%^*)_

She's just a friend, you see .

2010-02-04T23:38:00.003+09:00

I still think guys are annoying.
They'll only keep on pining for a girl when they cant get her.
And if you start giving, they'll stop giving.
Its soooooooooooooooo ughhhhh.
I think I'll never get them.
And this is gonna sound really ironic, BUT WHY ALL THE CUTE GUYS IN J1.
if only i was born like a month later, i'll be a january baby in year 1993.
pfffffffffffffffft.

Because 7-1=0 .

2010-02-04T21:04:00.002+09:00

Fuck.There's random unknown people adding me on msn, asking me if im a male.
Anyway,I just wanted to say after last night I've learned that,
Sometimes, you dont get what you want even though you've put in your 120%.
And people may never understand why we're always crying because they cant see the effort we put in.
I feel so bad because I have witnessed miracles, the things my ogls and ogms would do.
They did not deserve that.
Its ohkay, I believe we have a strong batch this year.
And even though you guys may not see this, but I have faith in you all that Callisto will rise up.
Callisto HC, we will stick together because 7-1=0.

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe

Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

-Invincible by Muse

Untitled .

2010-02-03T00:20:00.002+09:00

Am so stoned after MMM, that on the way home just now I almost forgot to press the stop button to get off the bus :/
Am so stoned til i didnt cap 2 bottles properly and as a result, it spilled over sheena and i.
Yap bought barley but when huiming asked him what the drink is, he said milo.
Huiming fell off the cushion seat at subway.HAHA. (she didnt go for MMM though, dont know why she so shag also)
Plus, even after having a subway sandwich, i was still hungry and went home for some leftover dinner.zohmygawd.
All the things that MMM does to you.sigh.
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO DO HOMEWORK LAH.
sooooooooo,SCREW HOMEWORK ;D
maybe i'll get it tomorrow.MAYBE.
5.30am FOR THE LAST EFFING TIME.have a feeling I might miss it when orientation is over though.
Andddddddddddddddd,I need to keep my emotions in check.
YOU, i dont like you.
SO STOP.

Some things you'll never know,

2010-01-30T01:41:00.001+09:00

If I could be your first real heartache, I would do it all over again .

2010-01-28T01:25:00.002+09:00

I feel so pfffffffft these days.
And there isnt much to blog about, because if i do blog, its just going to be my never ending rants about how school sucks, how life sucks, how boys suck, how i have so much effing homework and so little time to finish it, how I seem to be slacking a little, how we have to do some stupid orientation shit, how i wish i could be skinny, how i wish i could shop and get the stuff i really have been wanting to get for the longest time (especially my leopard cropped tee from topshop before it runs out of my size since all the girls in singapore are all size 8 and they're shit skinny!!!!kill all of you).
LOL.see, i would totally wanna save you guys from my inecessant whinings but oh well, thats just the condensed version.
UGH.hate my life.
Needto wake up at 5.20 tomorrow.
And I still have like 2 and a half gp essay plans to finish.GAWD.
I will not do my chrystal board.I dont care.NO TIME LAH.ALAMAK.
And I hope/pray that there will be cute j1 guys because I am bored in school.
Seriously, the last time i eyecandied someone was about 8 months ago.
HOW FRIGGIN SAD IS THAT.
It might sound slightly paedophile-ish to find a guy whose a year younger than you cute,but I DONT CARE.there's isnt much to look at in mj.
LOL.I bet the guys are saying the same thing abut mj girls.
Ohkay ohkay, i got to go back to writing about the impacts that foreigners have on singapore.
Yay. (not)

Ghost of You

2010-01-24T11:33:00.001+09:00

LOL.I'm pretty sure thats in the hearts of many girls/women out there.
And, once again,thanks to ashley who found this picture. ;D

Looks like a solo tonight .

2010-01-23T02:52:00.003+09:00

I am so tired.
I can die.
Woke up at 5.30am.
Now its nearly 2am and i only got home about half an hour ago.
):

Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny .

2010-01-21T02:05:00.003+09:00

Ashley showed me this on MSN, and i found it pretty amusing.
Apparently he found it somewhere or something.
So here you go:

“do you think she’s pretty?”

when you ask a question like this, your boyfriend knows he can’t win.

if he says “yes,” you’ll probably get jealous and upset. you might even follow up with “is she prettier than me?” talk about a loaded question!

of course, if he says “no” (and she clearly is pretty), you’ll accuse him of being a liar. you’ll wonder what else he’s lying about, even as you assure him you don’t mind if he says “yes.” pfff…as if you’re that insecure!

has he managed to convince you that he genuinely doesn’t find her attractive at all? you’ll wonder what his bad taste says about you.

see?

My reaction:

OMG I can so relate! & of course my boyfriend ABSOLUTELY can relate to this too [that’s why he posted this duh]… HAHA Fuck Joy.
I remember asking this question.. Ya know you can’t win.. Just accept the fact! :D
Understand that I do this because I’m so crazy for you that I can’t even allow anybody to be pleasant looking right in front of you.
I swear I’ll kick their asses off! Whores, biatches, bitches, Hoes.. Call them whatever names. Anyway boyfriend, at least you know how I am.
& I think most girls get insecure when other girls get their guys’ attention.
Ok well said.

Btw that 'MY' is not me, its the person who typed that.LOL.
Its so damn true though.

SMILE KID (:

2010-01-19T23:34:00.002+09:00

Everyone is so cranky and pms-y these days.
HORRIBLE.
Including myself lah.I'm quite bad also ):
But thats cos I havent been sleeping much!
And there's like a million things to do.
Plus orientation is coming upppp.
Ahhhhhhhh, its only the first month and I already feel stressed.
SUCKS.SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
I.want.to.quit.school.
Yah right.
AND, I HATE GUYS.
SOME OF THEM HAVE NO BRAINS.
IDIOTS,FOOLS AND MORONS.
Don't be surprised if I turn lesbian one of these days.

CAUGHT IN A BAD ROMANCE .

2010-01-18T23:55:00.005+09:00

I totally want those! Cookie Monster Cupcakes! So Cuteeeeeeeeee.
Am sooooooo addicted to Bad Romance.
This is bad.Yet awesome at the same time.
GaGa makes really good trashy music.

Anyway, random quotes of the day:

" There are 3 kinds of the girls in the world.
The first kind: girls who are average looking but have personality.
They will have a certain amount of guys going after them.
The second kind: girls with good looks but lack personality.
They will have a considerable amount of (superficial) guys going after their looks & body.
And the last: Girls with looks above average (not THAT good looking) and a personality.
But the hardest to find. "

" There is only one kind of guy in the world.
The kind that has 3 minds.
The Brain,
The Heart
and The one below."

MAKES SENSE RIGHT?!

GAHHHHHHHHH.

2010-01-18T01:34:00.003+09:00

Am so tired.
I HATE CHEM MECHANISMS.
ohkay wait no, I LOVE CHEM MECHANISMS
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT.
sigh.
I did not know I was getting myself into this shit when i decided to go jc.

I WANT YOUR LOVE AND I WANT YOUR REVENGE .

2010-01-17T22:36:00.002+09:00

The picture above: How ironic. lol.
I just realised I have so much work to do and the year JUST started.
Pfffft.I'm already so busy with my social life and school work.
HOW CAN I HAVE TIME FOR ANYTHING ELSE.

CALLISTO, WIN THEM ALL.

2010-01-16T23:50:00.000+09:00

I HEART YOU DIONNE TEO.
love study dates with her :D
Long story.You know I'll always be ready to listen and if anything, I'll tell you. ;D
Anyways, HEY PEOPLE GO CHECK OUT CALLISTO OPEN HOUSE MASS DANCE.
YOU GUYS WERE SOOOOOOO AWESOME.
OUR CHEER WAS LOUD AND CLEAR AND WE LOOK REALLY PRETTY ON TOP.
IM SO HAPPEEEEEEEEEEE.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iaj1bB8g5sc

I HEART US .

NOTE TO SELF:

2010-01-15T23:27:00.000+09:00

DO NOT GET DISRTACTED.
I WILL NOT GET DISTRACTED.
MY A LEVELS WILL BE MY BOYFRIEND FOR THE NEXT 10 MONTHS.
kay. bye.

I had awesome HTHT with JEM today.
I heart her ;D

Why Oh Why .

2010-01-12T23:44:00.001+09:00

Sigh.

We were too crazy in love .

2010-01-11T22:22:00.004+09:00

And when the lights go out,
We'll be safe and sound.
We'll take control of the world,
like it's all we have to hold on to.
And we'll be a dream.

-We'll be a dream by We The Kings and Demi Lovato

In all the chaos, we found safety .

2010-01-11T01:04:00.004+09:00

That's what's going through my head now.
SCHOOL STARTS IN LIKE 7 HOURS?!
Awesome.sigh.
I did not study for tests YET.
LOL.awesomeeeeeeee.
Sigh.Need to go pack my bag soon.
PLEASE I DO NOT WANT HEIGHT AND WEIGHT TOMORROW.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

Heaven can wait .

2010-01-10T01:35:00.003+09:00

I know I just blogged like awhile ago.
But after a series of incidents,I have some stuff to say.

SCREW THE WHOLE WORLD.
THERE IS NO JUSTICE.
NOTHING IS FAIR.
NOT EVERYONE IS NICE. ( well, on the surface maybe.)
PEOPLE DONT THINK BEFORE THEY DO/SAY STUFF.

Hurt is inevitable.

And no, these words do not necessarily apply to me.
But to those who know/understand, you'll get it.
Sigh.

But don't say we became too late .

2010-01-09T23:01:00.003+09:00

AM SO ANNOYED NOW.

1. NEED TO STUDY FOR TESTS?! (been running errands all day.hence, no studying)
2.WHERE THE F*CK DID ALL MY STATIONERIES GO TO?!
3.People are freakin out about the tests = making me even more freaked out
4.WILL THEY TAKE HEIGHT AND WEIGHT ON MONDAY?!BECAUSE I GAINED LIKE HOLIDAY FAT.
5.i just dont want school.
6.had so much for dinner.am so full, i feel like i should force myself to puke it out or something.
7.WHY CANT I BE BORN STICK THIN
8.Math and Chem tuition tomorrow

Sigh.I dont care if 3 years of my life is taken away.YAY.
And I want the freakin nylon magazine.WHY ISNT IT OUT YET?!
Hello?Inefficient magazine company much?
(In bitch mode now.)

You just don't get females now, do you?

2010-01-09T01:13:00.003+09:00

Hello one and all.
I know this blog is super dead.
but I WILL blog when i feel the need to rant/whine/celebrate.
And as of now, I AM ANNOYED BECAUSE I HAVE 2 FUCKING TESTS ON MONDAY.
THE FIRST FUCKING DAY OF SCHOOL.
CHEM-ORGANIC : INTRO,ALKANES,ALKENES,ARENES,HALOGENO SHIT
MATH-D.E
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I am so annoyed.
And our timetable is out already.whoopeedo.
Awesome shizz.I hope I remember to bring ODT on monday.
SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
AM SO NOT READY FOR SCHOOL NOW.
Plus, i want to download a gazillion nice songs into my I-touch. (yes thats one of my new gadgets in case some of you dont know)
I want to download Bee Gees.ughhhhh.
oh, Pixie Lott is awesome.
and Kelly Osburne does not deserve such a good looking boyfriend.
Dont know who I'm refering to?Google Luke Worall.
He's one HOT HOT HOT brit guy.So not robert pattinson or daniel radcliffe.
Tumblr has a shitload of prettayeeeeeeee pictures ;D
ahhhhhhhh, needa muggg tomorrow. ):
FISHHHHHHHHH.I have so may random thoughts in my head now.
Am so annoyed.Need to lose weight too.(fine, so you might think im crazy.but let's face it, im human and I have my own insecurities too.)
Bye everyone.I have like a whole list of things I need to do tomorrow ):
FIRST ON THE LIST WOULD BE TO STUDY D.E. ugh. and my daddy's birthday gift of course.

Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror .

2010-01-04T03:44:00.002+09:00

First Post of 2010.

King of Hearts and Queen of Spades .

2009-12-07T14:59:00.003+09:00

Am leaving for Korea tonight.
Had the most awesomest birthday ever.in my whole 17 years of life.
Thank you so much for the birthday wishes,cakes,surprises and presents!
It means damn alot to me.
So in no particular order (i hope i dont miss out anyone), (even though i dont know if you'll see it or not)

THANK YOU danial yap, serinder, masyitah, dionne teo, afiqah, tan wei yeat, emmanuel, an ting, hua yu, nawawi, faith, janetwin!, weilin, sheena, matt wee, asyraf kamil, sharifah saffa, erfi, asaad, razeef, hannabanana, connie ho shu ying, soleil mak, geok ling, gek ming, jiaqian koh!, deon heng,shi qi(sister!),
alphonsus, hafiz, aman&ern, genevieve, ger, mayxuen, james, adelyn, siddiq, nizam, yenny,
eunice goh, shuxian, renee lee, xiu qi, huiming, hafi, victoria, jessie, reggie, geraldine lee, jem!, nabs, zing, zhi han, huwaina, mairah, haneef, su!, hui yi, joy!, nicolette, sam peck, daphne ang, chia peiqi, cindy poh, jasmine quek, marieta, fadhilah, khairiah, fairul, annabelle, sharlyn, mathea goh!, loo peiyi, jamayne, justin choo, gerald, shruthi!, xavier, nadhirah, nurin, shu!, deb&pat, adarrel, valerie yeo and lastly MY MOST AWESOMEST FAMILY.

I HEART YOU GUYS MANY MANY.
and i wish all of you to be happy and safe.
Pictures and stories of my birthday incidents will be up when im back from korea!

SHIZZ.

2009-11-30T14:09:00.004+09:00

Ohkay inititally I didnt wanna blog butttttt I guess I will because:
1.I'm bored
2.I just read someone's blog and the person was talking about doing homework and shingzzzzzzzz I dont wanna do work. (oh yeah i actually asked some people out to do work today but everyone has their own plans and now I'm just feeling damn ewwww homework shit.So I'm just gonna slack.)

Right, so on to my rantings.
Let's see I can't remember what happened much recently accept for yesterday night.
Maybe cos things have been pretty much the same and nothing really exciting happened.
But oh well, the next 2 events coming up which im excited for is:
1.OGL CAMP (just slightly dreading MMM cause I can bet you my stamina is shizzz now then must run.wah lao)
2.LTC GROUP OUTING ;D
But other than that its pretty much pfffffffffft.
Cause I have science tuition on the 2nd dec. :K (ohkay if you dont know what this sign means, it just means the :/ face but eating a pizza.HAHAHAHAHA.SO CUTE RIGHT?!ITS GONNA BE MY NEXT MOST USED SYMBOL.)
Ohkay I am currently feeling slightly guilty for not studying yet.
So I am going to make a pact with myself that AFTER I COME BACK FROM MY KOREA TRIP WHICH WILL BE THE 14TH DEC.I WILL OFFICIALLY START STUDYING FOR NEXT YEAR.That means going to starbucks to do work and revising my notes AGAIN.
Or i could hold study sessions at my house ;D
People, you're welcome to form study groups kay.
Say bye to social life again. ):
Anyway on a lighter note, I swear if I see/drink/touch anymore alcohol for this week,
I.will.puke.
So detox starts this week, today and ends on my birthday.
Cause duh its my birthday, I wanna have fun.

To those who have to go to school for COV today, awwwwwwwwwww.
I'm gonna slack at home ;D
Off to go watch Autumn's Concerto.(Its a taiwanese drama and its damnnnnnnnn saddddddd)
Yay cos its gonna make me cry my heart out again!
Jem, if you're reading this, go watch autumn's concerto!

When I feel random,

2009-11-27T20:24:00.003+09:00

Quote of the day:

"One of the advantages of being disorganized is that one is always having surprising discoveries."

Via Kari-shma

LOL.THIS IS FOR ALL OF YOU WHO ALWAYS COMPLAIN ALL MY STUFF IS DAMN MESSY.

Its called Organized Chaos.Geddit?You better.

You know, a dear friend of mine spoke to me recently.

And one of the many things special about this person is that she always asks me The Most thought-provoking questions.

As usual, we were having a htht and she got me thinking again.

She asked me,

'Xiaoqi, Why are you so afraid to be human?'

'Why are you so afraid to be insecure?'

'Why are you so afraid of falling in love?'

'Why are you so afraid of exceeding or settling for less than people's expectations of you?'

'Why, are you so afraid to be a human being?'

Ironic much isnt it?She asking those questions to a Human.

Sometimes we care too much about what other people think, or we are too afraid of what people would say if we settled for anything they would deem as 'less fit' for you.

Those questions really brought up a conflict within myself.

AHHHHHHH.shizz.Its giving me a mindf*ck.LOL.

And now when the music ends, you'll be promising him an eternity .

2009-11-27T20:08:00.003+09:00

My 111th post:

Lesson learnt2:
The messenger always gets shot.

Random shit:
Today was practically my waste-your-life-away day.
All I did was vegetate, like wake up,eat,sleep,watch tv,eat,use computer.
Wah laooo.That equates to like Fats-unite-day or something.
pfffffffffft.Oh did i mention?
I have a thing for adding 'zzz' behind my words.
like shizzzz.sianzxzxzxz.lol!
Its the Ris Low Effect.
Life is sad lah.
As in its boring and effing routine for me.
But for some others, its just tragic.
And my heart goes out to them.

The Things that I miss:
1.Subway Sandwich
2.Shopping
3.Being busy with schoolwork?
4.LTC
5.Being slimmer
6.DBSK TOGETHER
7.Good times with my secondary school buddies
8.Spending time with mas,serinder,afiqah,asaad,razeef etc
9.Shu and Jem
10.Just taking a stroll down the streets of Orchard road with friends
11.Being in a bookstore

Now I'm left to forget about us.

2009-11-27T14:35:00.004+09:00

Lesson Learnt:

1.when you bitch, make damn sure it stays within four walls.

Anyway, Don't forget by Demi Lovato has been set on loop in my playlist.

Somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all

And at last all the pictures have been burned

And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned

I won't forget, please don't forget us

Somewhere we went wrong

Our love is like a song but you won't sing along

You've forgotten about us

Don't forget

Before i end this post, Happy Hari Raya Haji Friends!

Our love is like a song, you can't forget it.

2009-11-25T23:24:00.003+09:00

I hate it when these days I have more free time than usual and my mind starts to wonder.

Ugh.So many thoughts.So many emotions.

'Cause I'm damned if I do ya, damned if I don't

2009-11-23T21:22:00.003+09:00

I miss soccer season when there were so many school cheers. ):

Feel so choked up.

2009-11-22T23:10:00.003+09:00

I do not believe in 'Forever and Always' .

!@#$^&(#$%^&

2009-11-22T00:42:00.003+09:00

I feel so dfghjxcvbndfhjxcvbndfghjcvbnfghjcvbnyh.

When I say jump, you say How High .

2009-11-20T21:00:00.003+09:00

Off to simei starbucks to do work.

sigh.feel so tired even though we dont have much lessons.

Life is pretty much about lectures + dance + house comm.

Got the school tee and jacket!

I was so excited about wearing the jacket out and showing it off to all the other random people.

But its not that great.Its not that bad either.Its oh-kay.

Bye everyone.Have a nice weekend!

So I'll leave before i fall apart right back into your arms .

2009-11-19T21:02:00.003+09:00

Still.Camp.Hungover.

GROUP 5 SHOUTS US: BOOMZ. SHOUTS THEM: SHINGZ.

2009-11-16T15:51:00.003+09:00

THIS IS MY 100TH POST.
random.anyway GOSH I JUST CAME BACK FROM LTC AND LUNCH WITH MY GROUP.
it feels so surreal because just yesterday we were still having our T-Race (some sort of amazing race) in like places far from civilisation where you can smell the pungent smell of fertilisers from farms.And we were still cracking jokes (mind you, my group had MANY.)
And like plauying warfare games, holding the 4kg plus laser gun and aiming for the other group.
Somehow it feels like it ended way too soon.Like all the happy memories happened and ended in the blink of an eye.
And I have to say, my group is full of nonsense people.
Wei Yeat.Emanuel.Asyraf.Eunice.Hua Yu.Kevin.Sharifah.
Rachel.Faith.Neville.Nabs.Yee Loo.Jian Ann.Yennie (Yan Rong).An Ting.
They truly made this camp a different one for me.
Its hard to explain and its gonna sound very cliche.
But thats how it is, we had fun, we made a fool out of ourselves.We opened up more.We cracked jokes about each other.We looked out for each other.At the end of the day, it didnt matter if we won or we didnt, we gave our best.
So I guess I could look past all the lizard shit, hard wooden bunks, numerous bees, sharing the soapy water to clean my plate with the rest of the cohort, marshy swampland water (think mud), seeing certain unsightly stuff in the female toilet *shudders* (think underwear and used pad) and all the mosquito bites.
I mean come on, look at the combination of my group mates.We're seriously probably one of the most mismatched groups.But I guess despite all the difference, we came together and played to our heart's content.
So there may be one or two groups who seem damn bonded, but I think that my group bonded pretty well too over the course of like 3 days and 2 nights (which actually is a very short time).
There's school tomorrow so I guess I might be seeing them. ;D (cant wait for all our inside jokes)
I hope the friendship lasts cause its not the kind that's built on having similar interests and stuff.I mean as I've said, we're all damn different.
But the fact that we could come together means alot.
Of course, I cant forget my camp instructor, Shu Xian.There are alot of things I would like to say about her.But I guess it would take forever.So long story short, I guess she's like none other.

'Laugh over the moments you cried. Cry over the moments you laughed.' (Quoted from Shu Xian)

It doesnt feel good . ):

2009-11-13T21:04:00.003+09:00

lol.this is my boyfriend ;D

I just realise that other than having a thing for guys in oxford shoes and fedoras,

guys who wear converse high cut sneakers with slim fit denim jeans also look damn good!

Ohkay in case some of you cant recognise, THATS JAEJOONG ABOVE.

Everybody has been so sad lately.sigh.

Its contagious.Its gonna be the end of the year man.

Everyone should cheer up ):

Curtain Calls...

2009-11-12T23:26:00.004+09:00

Oh yeah and one more thing,
THE WHOLE WORLD IS DEPRESSED.
MY GOOD FRIENDS ARE EITHER DEPRESSED OR NOT IN THE MOOD TO TALK.
Word of advice:

So dont.

Its like a MindF* .

2009-11-12T23:08:00.004+09:00

I feel like I'm having a mindfuck right now.
There's a shit load of things going on in my head.

1.ltc this weekend. Which means I'll be missing out on tuition again! I already missed out on last week so its like 130 bucks down the drain?wtffffffffffff.
2.celebrating my sister's birthday tomorrow. (before the actual day) I HAVENT GOTTEN HER A PRESENT. which means I have to rush it tomorrow?!
3.I DONT HAVE THE LTC CONSENT FORM (which i will have to by hook or by crook find it tomorrow)
4.there's drama tomorrow.which reminds me I should drop drama before things get really hectic next year.so like I have to talk to Mr Low and stuff? (dont know how i should go about this mannnnnnn)
5.dance showcase tomorrow?!no idea what time especially when everyone is so busy with GPF and gawd knows what.
6.plus next weekend, i will not be around so I'll have to miss out on tuition again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (dont ask me why)
7.I have to make time to accompany my friends to do stuff we were suppose to do.like accompany dionne to get her wallet.Which is difficult cos some days she has band and some days i wont be around or I might be going for make up tuition.AHHHHHHHHHH.

I WANT TO PULL MY HAIR OUT.so annoyed with myself.

Cupid shot me in the eye so they say love is blind .

2009-11-12T19:15:00.009+09:00

I found something interesting.

WHY SOME PEOPLE ARE JERKS:

"Because you’re looking for a date, not love. Because you’re more interested in
who you go to bed with than who you wake up next to. Because you tick boxes in
your head instead of crossing lines in your heart."

via: I wrote this for you (via kari-shma)

Good morning assessors and fellow classmates....

2009-11-11T21:36:00.003+09:00

OP TOMORROW.
SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
i hope everything goes fine.
BEING NERVOUS AND Q&A IS MY DOWNFALL.
I hope i wont be nervous tomorrow.
Please remind myself to stay clam.

Note to self:
Dear self,
you have spent an entire year doing all this shit.
SO FUCK THIS SHIT.
YOU HAVE PRACTISED MAN.
YOU CAN DO THIS.
DONT LET A BUNCH OF FUCKING PEOPLE YOU DONT KNOW, SCREW YOU UP.
FUCK THIS SHITTTTTTTTTT.
Love, Me.

I am not mad.its just a reminder to tell myself not to mess up.
things to do tonight:
1.practise infront of the mirror some more and time myself.remember to aim for 4.40!i did it once ;D
2.STUDY AND MEMORISE POINTS FOR Q&A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHIZZ X A MILLION
3.I&R?!
4.remember to bring I/C AND ENTRY PROOF
5.pack charger in bag.
7.bring pe shirt for dance later.

Oh yes, one last thing.
Dear pretty in pink ms toshiba laptop,
I know sometimes im an ass for just causing you to hang and jam up.
and that Its all my fault for defacing you ):
But please, tomorrow is a gawd damn important day for me.
So you could you PLEASE start up fine for me?
I love you.

OH.MY.GAWD.

2009-11-10T20:05:00.005+09:00

Ohkay, im back again.
BUT FOR GOOD REASONS.
I was at allkpop.
AND I SAW PICTURES OF MY NUMBER1 BOYFRIENDDDDD (:

AHHHHHHHHH.Cant wait to watch Heaven's Postman!
So I know i have a gazillion other crushes on korean actors/singers.
But my attention span for the others dont really last long.LOL.
Anyway, he was at the press conference of his telecinema.so yeah.
Zohmygawddd.he damn hot please.I am so much happier now.
BUT AM STILL FAT.

STUPID LOVE LETTER.

2009-11-10T19:51:00.004+09:00

OP ON THURSDAY.

AM SO SCREWED FOR OP.

WILL HAVE TO TALK TO MYSELF LIKE MAD WOMAN LATER TO PRACTISE.

Today, I walked into topshop.

and I saw so many pretty clothes.

but they're the kind that you have to be damn skinny so you'll look nice in them

WHY CANT I BE SKINNY.

Am back to square 1 again = FAT.

Must start operation diet again!

It worked initially.

but my willpower is shit lousy.

oh pleaseeeee, i just wanna drop to a skinny S.

I'm sick and tired of writing songs about you ,

2009-11-09T13:59:00.003+09:00

I'm in school now and im effing bored.
LIFE SUCKS.

I heart random piczxzxzxz.

HE.IS.SO.HOT. *DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLS*

When life is one big fucking beauty contest,

2009-11-08T22:20:00.001+09:00

I have yet to watch this movie.

I HATE IT WHEN MY BEST FRIEND VISITS. ):

2009-11-07T00:05:00.006+09:00

About that statement above,
Well, its not a literal meaning.
Its more of a figure of speech.
Like not as in a physical friend, more of a 'friend' only females have.
A 'friend' who visits every month.
If you still dont get it, slap yourself.

ANYWAY, HAVE YOU SEEN MY BOYFRIEND? ;DDD
SO HOTTTTTTTTTTTTT. *SWOONS*

If I go to Korea,Im gonna bring back some souvenirs for my friends and I ;D

1. DBSK - Jaejoong, Changmin, Yoochun and Junsu (i dont mind if i dont bring back yunho)

2. SHINEEE ;D - in particular Minho,Key and Taemin.

3. LEEMINHOOOOOO. <3

4. LEE HONG KI- ohkay how bout THE WHOLE OF F.T ISLAND. i love them .

5. SUJU - donghae, kyunhun and eunhyuk

6. DANIEL HENNEY -i dont know if he lives in korea or not.is this how to spell his name?

7. KIM BUM- HOW COULD I EVER FORGET?!

Right.I cant think of anyone else.Feel free to add on to my list! ;D

There's a haze above my tv .

2009-11-04T20:32:00.006+09:00

I miss DBSK ):
So much controvesy.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.why are people so screwed man?!
If you have no idea whats happening with the DBSK lawsuit shit (you shouldnt be, unless you're living under a rock), check out Allkpop.
Nonetheless, Cassiopeia rocks.
THEY are a force to be reckoned with.

Anyway, check this out:

THE MAIN CAST OF YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL.DAMN HOTTTTTT.

HONG KIIIIIIIII ;DDDD (he's the one holding on to the electric guitar)

Hey love, you left me behind .

2009-11-04T00:56:00.002+09:00

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning. says:
that would be damn gross on XXX's part.
why would someone want him....

I'm jaded, bottles breaking . says:
HAHAHAHAHA
alot of people eyecandied him in our school can

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning. says:
what is the attraction?!?!?!??! why dont i get it!
everyone is not normal lah.

I'm jaded, bottles breaking . says:
HAHAHAHAHA
DIONNE
HAVE YOU THOUGHT THAT MAYBE YOU'RE NOT THE NORMAL ONE
?????!!!!!!

LOL.got to love my friend man.

Sidetrack,

Wtf is up with my life.

The world's twisted .

2009-10-31T03:19:00.003+09:00

I just finished all 25 episodes of BOF.
Its awesome I tell you.
LEE MINHOOOOOOOO ;D
Ohkay i know im totally into this fangirling phase,
which will end after i continue watching you're beautiful / start watching jap meteor garden.
LOL.apparently my korean idol crushes dont last long.
I can imagine dionne nagging at me saying my crushes should be REALISTIC.
Lee Minho damn hot please.
and he has six abs!you know the kind thats like half visible, half not.
ahhhhhh.plus he's damn hot.
ANYONE WATCHED HIS DUNKIN DONUTS COMMERCIAL?! *faints*
He looks really good when he's in sneakers and straight hair. *swoons*
NURIN, HURRY FINISH THEN WE CAN OBSESS TOGETHERRRRRRRR.
Its 2.22am on a saturday morning, WHY EVERYONE SLEEP ALREADY.
NO LIFE LAHHHHHHHH. ):
what happened to staying up late.
Oh, two things i learnt from BOF.
1. If everything could be solved by saying sorry, why would there be the police or the law?
2. Life is twisted and fate brings people together.
A number of random thoughts in my head.
All my tuition sessions are starting this week ):

You and I, we're an overnight sensation .

2009-10-30T14:13:00.001+09:00

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty .

2009-10-29T23:47:00.003+09:00

I have never felt so useless in my life.
Its like watching your buddy getting knocked over by a big yellow school bus.
And you're just standing at the sidewalk, unable to do anything.
Unable to help her, to relieve her grieve.
I feel tears of anguish and helplessness well up in my eyes.
Plus some people are so annoying, I want to fucking bite their heads off.
Everytime I meet you, shithead, You throw me one whole big bag of shit.
I hope I dont see you soon.
Rather, let's hope we dont meet again.

Half truth, Half lies .

2009-10-29T23:13:00.002+09:00

I cannot believe you.
Your words make no sense.
They contradict each other.
You still think I am a gullible fool.
You fabricate a bunch of lies.
What for?
I choose to remain silent,
listening to you spin your giant web of lies.
But I guess you weren't careful enough,
and I can see the cracks clearly this time.
You stupid fool, I am not the same person I was.

You are a Joke.

We're all part of the sick little games .

2009-10-26T00:54:00.004+09:00

I'm gonna break down these walls I built around myself,

I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you

and no one else could ever mean half as much to me as you do now,

Together we'll move on,

just don't turn around,

Let the walls break down,

I'm jaded, bottles breaking .

2009-10-26T00:47:00.003+09:00

SPREADING THE 'YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL' LOVEEEEEEE ;DDDD

No, its not the song by James Blunt.

Its a new korean drama.ITS BLOODY BRILLIANT.

Definitely going into My Top 10 Korean Drama List <3

You're only happy when I'm wasted .

2009-10-24T23:33:00.002+09:00

The only time when Couple Tees do not look gross:

Latest addiction : Stella-All Time Low

You're just a Hopeless Romantic.

2009-10-24T01:03:00.004+09:00

Hey everyone,

well if anyone still reads this blog of mine.

MY HANDPHONE IS BEING RETARDED.

I cant send out messages.But i still can receive messages,answer calls etc.

DAMNNNNNN.

Guess it gives me every reason to get a new phone! ;D

Any suggestions?

Because I am bored.

2009-10-23T02:47:00.004+09:00

What Love really means:

I wanna wake up where you are .

2009-10-19T01:31:00.002+09:00

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything seems like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

Of studs and florals .

2009-10-18T00:52:00.007+09:00

Siddiq just asked me whats homeclub.

HAHAHAHAHA.

WTH?!ARE YOU LIVING UNDER A ROCK MY FRIEND?

i have a shit load of pee dubs stuff to doooooo.

ugh.

One day I shall type out A list of Fashion Don'ts and WHY GIRLS SHOULD WEAR SHORTS UNDERNEATH THEIR SHORT SCHOOL SKIRTS.

it really puzzles me how girls can NOT wear shorts underneath their school skirts

I mean you all can go on about how you're gawd damn sure you sit properly, but are you REALLY POSITIVELY ABSOLUTELY SURE?

Think Again.

(today looks like the day i shall talk about the 2 mentioned above.)

Not gonna mention names here, but one day, A (who does not wear shorts underneath her school skirt.[I know because she told me])was sitting at the study benches, then when she wanted to get up and out, she flung her leg over the bench.

And voila, behind her were a bunch of J2 guys GAWKING at the area around her skirt, you know how when you fling your leg over the bench, and your skirt is short, YOU THINK NO ONE CAN SEE UNDERNEATH, BUT REALLY, YOU ARE WRONG.

W.R.O.N.G.

I am 123456789234567845678% SURE the guys saw what was beneath her skirt.

I didnt tell her of course.I mean it would be so bloody obvious and she would be so embarrassed.

or mortified.I dont know.

Another thing is, sure its really airy and comfortable not wearing shorts underneath.

But i bet you dont know that our school skirt is actually slightly translucent.

What I mean is, because your underwear makes this sort of v shape at the back of your butt right,PEOPLE can actually see a DARKER PATCH creating this sort of V shape on your skirt.

So its damn obvious you're not wearing shorts underneath.

No, im not some pyschopath who goes around looking at the butts of girls.

Just that I've seen it a gazillion times.Trust me, when I brought this up, even guy friends of mine agreed with me.

SO GUYS SEE OHKAY.THEY CAN TOTALLY SEE IT.

so you can go ahead, not wearing shorts underneath and let everyone see that V Patch on your butt.

btw, if you wear a pair of shorts which are SO DAMN ASS SHORT, THAT IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE.

THEN DONT WEAR ONE AT ALL.really, some people actually wear damn ass SHORT SHORTS.i dont know why.it absolutely defeats the purpose of wearing shorts to make sure you dont expose yourself.

Fashion Don'ts. (credits to nurin, tang and afiqah)

1.DO NOT FREAKIN WEAR A SCRUNCHIE.

for Gawd's sake, its the 21st century.

No One, i repeat, NO ONE, wears a scrunchie anymore.

Unless you're some market auntie then I dont care.

This especially goes out to some girl B in our school.

its effing gross.STOP WEARING IT.

2.if you're fat, dont wear skinnies.

Ohkay, sorry if this is direct and untactful.

Skinnies were made to make our legs look skinnier right?

Well, sadly, that only applies to people with legs which are NOT FAT/TOO MUSCULAR.

because skinnies actually highlight the 'skinniness' of legs.

So if you have fat/wayy too huge thighs and whatever, it'll only make your legs look even bigger.

and really, ( quotes from tang) your skinnies become fatties.

3.if you're wearing leggings, please wear women boxers of thongs.

You ust be wondering why right.

In case you havent noticed, if you wear normal underwear, and us, being imperfect human beings,our fat from our butt will stick out , and it creates this unsightly V line on your leggings.

Which is absolutely hideous.Unless you're like those victoria secret models eg Miranda Kerr,

who are extremely fit and toned, go ahead and wear your usual panites.

4.Coloured/Patterned Bra under Plain WHITE/TRANSLUCENT tops = BIG NO NO.

Do I even need to elaborate on this?

Ohkay, thats about all.I cant remember anything else.

If anyone has any to share, just tag.

Enjoy the long weekend peeps!

I hate Pee Double-U.

V for Vendetta

2009-10-16T20:12:00.004+09:00

Bloody Brillant Facking Movie.
Its even better than The Prestige to me.
One of The best movies of all time currently.
A wonderfully woven twisted story.
V + Evey = <3
Remember Remember, the 5th of November.
The gunpowder, treason, and plot.
I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot...
But what of the man?
I know his name was Guy Fawkes and I know, in 1605, he attempted to blow up the Houses of Parliament.
But who was he really? What was he like?
We are told to remember the idea, not the man, because a man can fail.
He can be caught, he can be killed and forgotten, but 400 years later, an idea can still change the world.
I've witnessed first hand the power of ideas, I've seen people kill in the name of them, and die defending them...
but you cannot kiss an idea, cannot touch it, or hold it...
ideas do not bleed, they do not feel pain, they do not love...
And it is not an idea that I miss, it is a man...
A man that made me remember the Fifth of November.
A man that I will never forget.

With a dose of reality .

2009-10-15T21:59:00.002+09:00

Feminist in the making ;D

MJ MEDLEY.

2009-10-14T21:05:00.001+09:00

I have to promise myself NEVER to binge again.

Where did the silver lining go?

2009-10-13T21:40:00.002+09:00

Stay strong guys. (:

'Cause we are able.

I'm gonna break your little heart .

2009-10-12T21:06:00.002+09:00

I ate less today.

But I still had A meal.

ugh.nevermind, at least I'm off to a new start! (:

Fat hangs onto my skin and bones like parasite.I.want.them.off.

And I can foresee this is gonna be one shitty week.

Countless pw periods and getting back exam scripts.

Tsk.May God Bless Us All.

Good Luck Guys.We might all need it.

The Prestige .

2009-10-11T23:14:00.003+09:00

As the title of my blog suggests, I watched that movie today.
I must say its bloody brilliant, its ingenious!

Anyway, I really have to stop myself from eating.

Its making me fat and fat girls cannot look nice in clothes.

I want to go back to when I could SEE and FEEL my ribcages.

ugh.I got a long way to go.

Its ohkay, pain is temporary.Glory is forever.

As long as I say away from food, I wont touch them.

That's right.

I'm gonna begin operation run away from food.

FOOD is a bitch.It is NOT my friend.

It will KILL me and make me UNHAPPY.

bye my friends.

having to do publicity hc shit sucks.

Screwed up Body Clock .

2009-10-08T02:49:00.003+09:00

Just watched The Other Bolelyn Girl.
Nice movie but traumatising.
Love the dresses and castles.
But its just really disturbing about how the monarchy in england went about doing their stuff.
and how ambition in one family broke them into pieces.
so I guess I cant really sleep now.ugh.
Btw, I am such a pigggggggggg.
All I did today was eat,watch movie,sleep,eat some more,watch some more movies.
and here i am now.GOSH.
fat much.pffffffffft.
Cable Ski tomorrow.slightly worried.
its freakin gonna be 2am and there are so little people online.why?!
its freakin slack days nowwwwww.people should be staying up! :/
ohkay actually i have 21 contacts online.
So technically I still have alot of people to talk to right.
But I dont know, suddenly i just realised that out of my 176 contacts, (damn little I know.)
I only talk to at most less than a 50.or maybe even lesser than 50.
So like whats the use of having so many contacts when i only actually really make conversation and talk to a few right?
I also dont know.Its like having many accquaintances or friends but when it comes to a quiet late night and you're seeking company, you realise you dont want to talk to the only 21 contacts on your msn list who are online.
idle chatter once again.bye.

I SAW MY UNION JACK VANS.GORGEOUS.BETTER THAN THE EVERLAST ONE.
HAHA.ALL YOU SUCKERS EAT MY SHIT WHEN YOU SEE MY UNION JACK VANS ;DDD

Are you The Exception or The Rule?

2009-10-07T22:00:00.004+09:00

He's just not that into you.
Brilliant movie.
One of the best chickflicks to me currently.
Its funny, its adorable, its touching. And it is absolutely real.
Like it could happen in real life.
Anyone up for a good chickflick should totally watch this!
It's awesome!It's grand!

'I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.
It's exhausting. ' -Mary (played by drew barrymore)

Did i mention that they have quite a star studded cast?
I mean Jennifer Anniston, Drew Barrymore and Scarlett Johanson?
Like Woa-oh!
Oh, scarlett johanson plays a hot yoja instructor whose aspiring to be a singer.
She's damn hot!

How can any girl have big boobs and still be skinny???!!!!!

Life's unfair. Its either Big boobs or Skinny.

How can she have both??!!!!

Btw I'm having Post Promos Panic Attack.

Like I won't do well and stuff.ugh. :/

So much for chilling and relaxing.

Don't be so sentimental. No, this love is accidental.

2009-10-07T01:50:00.003+09:00

Hello. If you're too lazy to read the gawd damn post.
Just read the highlighted words.They're the main points.

Quote of the day (from Ranice) : If you're happy and you know it (sings to tune of 'if you're happy and you know it, clap your hands') , THINK AGAIN.

J1 Bash was Surprisingly Awesome.

To those who didnt go, What a Waste.

I'll let the pictures do the talking though, so got to wait til pictures are uploaded.

Trella was Amazing.

Matts/Mutts/Mats/Muhds (depending on how you want to spell it)from mj are shit annoying.

I want to beat all of you up.

Piss me off when you guys are moshing again, we'll see what happens.

I AM NOT AFRAID TO MOSH BACK.

Assholes.

'I'm gonna break your little heart.

Watch you take the fall.

Laughing all the way to the hospital.

There's nothing surgery can do.'

-Break your little heart by All time low

Love Math. Hate Math.

2009-10-04T18:16:00.004+09:00

Dude on the right: Hi, my name is Math.
Dude on the left: *blinks and stabs dude on the right* I hate you.

Ha Ha Ha.
I can imagine all ma fwenzxz scolding me already cos i should be hardcoring for math now ):
Oh, have i mentioned?
I came to a conclusion that Math was made to demoralise and kill the stupid. ;/
I mean I got to admit I have this love-hate relationship with Mr Mathematics.
Love it cos its damn important, you practically need it in every aspect of your life.
Hate it because JC H2 Math is damn tedious, requires alot of patience, and one bloody mistake means your final answer is wrong.AHHH.
and sad to say, patience isnt one of my virtues.PFFFFT.

With DBSK's temporary disappearance from the k-pop scene because of their lawsuit; yunho

and changmin's busy filming schedule,I think I have found another DBSK Number 2 ;D
SHINEE.
I know I'm damn slow.but whatevs.
Better now than never.LOL.
Btw,has anyone watched them on Star King?
ITS THREZ HILARIOUS!
and they're damn cute also ;D
k-pop/pretty boys for da win! ;DOhkay,I Officially Hate that girl.anyway, they're taking pictures for some short of winterwear brand.
Ahhhh.Minho ;D

Why is Minho always next to the girl?!WHY.

Not Now .

2009-10-03T13:37:00.003+09:00

Hey guys.

One last paper to go.

Take care and study hard.

Math iz ma boyfwenzxzxzxz. (pukes)

wake up.now.

2009-09-20T01:36:00.002+09:00

THANK YOU SHU, MY FRIEND .

NEW MOON TRAILER DA EFFING SEX.

2009-09-19T23:20:00.004+09:00

JACOB BLACK. (taylor lautner)

DAMN HOT.sorry guys, I'm a jacob fan. ;D

JANE!(dakota fanning) who is so damn gorgeous, even though she's wearing red contacts.

and she's only 2 years younger than me.

DAMN.SHE'S MAKING MEGA BUCKS.

and here i am, slugging my ass off for promos.

sigh.LIFE IS UNFAIR.

The actual movie poster.

I think this is fan made.but it looks good.

ZOHMYGAWD.HAS ANYONE SEEN THE NEW MOON TRAILER?!
IT LOOKS SO FCUKING GOOD.

DAKOTA FANNING IS ACTING IN IT.

SHE'S PLAYING JANE, THE VAMPIRE WHO WORKS FOR THE VOLTURI WHICH HAS 'BRAIN-KILLING' POWERS.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

even though twilight sucked shit big time.

this trailer seriously looks damn good.

and I'm pretty sure my blog is shit boring and people hardly read it anymore.

BUT PLEASE, I URGE ANYONE OF YOU WHOSE READING, TO GO WATCH THE NEW MOON TRAILER.

link here: http://www.inentertainment.co.uk/20090914/new-moon-extended-trailer-official-version-from-vmas-2009/

ITS DAMN GOOD.NO SHIZZ BALLZ.

Btw,think i will wanna get tvxq tees. ;D

Same Old .

2009-09-18T22:42:00.001+09:00

Sometimes we all need a little fairy dust in our lives.

Its empty .

2009-09-10T01:28:00.003+09:00

I am so bloody annoyed with myself.
the fact that I'm so slack, that the urgency has not kicked in./
that I still have a lot of studying to finish up.
The fact that I am not the least bit motivated.
the fact that I am studying/revising at snail's pace.
the fact that I can still be so nonchalant about it.
the fact that prep talks hasnt helped the least bit.ohkay maybe it did, for like few seconds.
and the most important thing is, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY IM IN THIS SITUATION.
its like I'm stuck in this phase, this timezone.
No I'm not drowning.I'm like floating.in nothingness.
Nothing.I feel nothing.
Everytime i try to give myself a prep talk and get myself motivated and all.
the next day, everything goes away, and im back to my normal usual self.
WHY.i dont know why.
I NEED HELP.ASAP.
somebody send out an SOS sign for me.please.
I'm worried but I'm not doing anything about it.WHY?
doesnt make sense right?action comes after reaction , vice versa.
doesnt seem to be this way for me.WHY.
so many bloody freakin 'why's. WHY.ugh.
i so hate myself.if anything happens, I AM TO BLAME.
even though i may not be ready to accept the consequences.
another most irritating thing is that all these negative thoughts wont keep going away.
ITS JUST GONNA MAKE THINGS WORSE.
im trying to shelve but it keeps on coming back.
ITS NOT GOING AWAY.
i need focus.100% focus.I'm running out of time.that i can't buy.
but focus, I JUST NEED SOMETHING TO MAKE ME CONCENTRATE.
but what?i dont know.if i knew, i wouldn't be in this state would i?
half the week is gone.
this looks like a mental breakdown right?
but no.really.i am fine.im not crying/panicking in front of my computer.
I'm just staring at it calmly.breathing still.just typing away.
My face is the same as it always is.not a sign of worry.
So it seems like everything is alright.right?
Or does it just mean something is seriously wrong?
Come to think of it, in times of danger, like GRAVE danger, and a person doesnt show fear, that means something is seriously off right?
I mean think about it, let's say on one normal day, you in the classroom staring out of the window, then you see someone familiar on the roof.Your best friend.you see her slowly moving towards the edge of the roof, she takes one more step forward and she'll plunge to her death. the normal reaction would be to scream/faint/cry/call for someone for help.
But what if you're just standing there.staring.fully aware of whats happening.No you're not silenced because of the shock.You know perfectly well what is going on.
YOU ARE JUST LOOKING/LETTING IT HAPPEN.
and no you're not letting it happen because you secretly hate her or something.SHE/IT MEANS ALOT TO YOU.but why?i dont know.
confusion/contradictory much?I DONT FREAKIN CARE IF YOU UNDERSTAND.
half the time i try to make sense out of something, it doesnt make sense anyway.
then i just wont bother trying and the party listening just wont bother finding out also.
so forget it. (see, negative thoughts again)
I CANNOT HELP IT.willpower?maybe thats what i need.
But its hard. (no one said its gonna be easy)
Tsk, sometimes i hate that voice in my head.
Now people are just gonna think I'm mad.
whatever.
Goodbye my friends.

2009-09-08T21:50:00.001+09:00

There's a storm raging through my frozen heart tonight .

Zohmygawd, I THINK I CAN FINALLY POST PICTURES TODAY.LOL!

2009-09-07T21:46:00.001+09:00

YES AH.I CAN FINALLY SEE ALL THE BLOGGER ICONS CRAP.

anyway, its TWENTY-FCUKING-TWO-DAYS TO PROMOS.

ohgawd.no one can save me now except for myself.

Let's see, today i went back to school to study.

I was productive in the morning and early afternoon.

after which....I dont know what happened.LOL.

Mum and Sis coming back tonight.YAY (:

yay to being able to hear my mum asking me the most random routine questions.

yay to being able to spend late nights with my sister doing really random things.

yay to being able to say hi to her when i come home all the time.

AND YAY TO THE STUFF THEY BOUGHT FOR ME ;D

so exxxxxxxxxxxxxx-cited.

I'm so glad im not the only child.

anyway, OHKAY I GOTTA STUDY LATER LAH.

right, that wasnt so much of me typing it out so anyone can read it.

it was more of a type it out to remind myself sort of thing.

ANYWAY, did anyone hear Colours,Melody and Harmony by Jaejoong and Yoochun?

I SWEAR.ITS DAMN GOOD.think its gonna be my next most listened song. ;D

shall go find the lyrics later.

Btw, I'm looking for a new blogskin.lol.

I wanted to blog about a random thought.But guess not.

Shall just keep it in my mind, for me and only myself to know. *smiles*

OHMYGAWD.I JUST SAW THE MV FOR COLOURS,MELODY AND HARMONY.LIKE WHAT THE %^&*(#$%^&*()#$%^&*()_$#%&*( DID YOU ALL SEE MY BOYFRIEND?!JAEJOONG DAMN HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. *FAINTS*

When Will I See You Again .

2009-09-05T01:01:00.000+09:00

I nearly died while photocopying all the history notes for tomorrow.
I mean there were like probably 20 pages double sided in total?
and my photocopying machine is the print one page by one page kind.
goshhhh, i could wait til the world ended and I'll still be waiting.
anyway, went out to study in the evening.wasnt very productive but i had fun.LOL.
S4 CLASSES GOT ALOT OF GOSSIP AH. hahaha.
and I needa have dinner with my daddy tomorrow.errrrrrr.odd.
kay anyway, my mum and my sis flew off last night.damn, im sad ):
ahh well.nearly got into deep trouble today.
butttttttttt, phew ;D
come to think of it, I dont even have to go for history tomorrow.
but i decided to be hardworking and my mummy mentioned before she left that i should go.
so im going!funny how i miss my mum my sis.and usually im so annoyed with them.
absence makes the heart grow fonder.LOL.cheesy much.but true nonetheless.
I HOPE STUDYING WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TOMORROW.IT BETTER BE ;/
and i bet coffee bean expo will be mj reunion again.tsk.LOL.
i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.i wanna watch the time traveller's wife.
But i guess it'll never happen til after promos. ):
ERN.HOW?!WE HAVE SO MANY UN-CARRIED OUT DATES LAH.pffffft.
This is my life.wait, WHAT LIFE?!
hahaha, off to vectors2 my friends.bye!

Look whose having the last laugh now.HA HA.(in your face)

2009-09-02T22:08:00.000+09:00

I have to study.I have to study.I have to study.I have to study.I have to study.I have to study.
I SWEAR I HAVE TO STUDY AFTER IM DONE BLOGGING.
anyway, I feel like i havent spoken/seen some people in ages.
eg, connie ; ranice. and i dont know who else.
everyone's so caught in their own stuff.and so tired.
Its so difficult to even have a simple lighthearted conversation.pfffft.
Whats becoming of all of us man.Its all the stress.
Its horrible.
AND I CANT CONCENTRATE IN SCHOOL FOR FREAKIN NUTS.
its freakin distracting.I WILL study outside from now onwards unless i have absolutely no choice, i'll stick around in school.
Anyway, tomorrow there's a double chem spa period.and there's no spa.
SO WHAT THE FREAKIN SHIT HELL ARE WE GONNA DO?!tutorial?! *faints*
and i just realised i might just get 16 marks for spa.sigh.life is shit.
I made a stupid careless mistake.as usual.its always my careless mistakes.
maybe one day i might make a careless mistake and accidentally drink soap instead of water and end up dying.ha ha ha.
That's called black humour.and no, i dont care if you get my joke or not.
OH, NOTE TO SELF: bring something nice to eat for ern tomorrow!
kay anyway, my mum and sis are leaving for japan tomorrow night.
My mum was asking me if I wanted to go, but as usual, I cant cos promos is in a month.
its like how i gave up going to taiwan during the june holidays for mid years.
and i didnt even do well anyway.so i dont know whether me going japan or not would affect my promos.heck, I cant go now anyway.
Come to think of it, I'm only missing out on the materialistic things.But i guess i miss the whole just touring around the streets of japan and watching the everyday life of the japanese people/.
I swear just watching youngsters in their school uniform, or taking a train to some rural area near mount fuji makes me so excited.the whole time i was looking out the window of their subway.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.sigh.
and to think I was supposedly 'having the time of my life' when my family was out of town.
I was very wrong indeed.well, end of the year im going korea ;D korean pretty boys here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. HAHAHAA.
oh and japanese food is the bomb.and no not only do i love sashimi/sushi/ramen/udon, but their japanese style western food is just simply awesome.and their pastry/bread is absolutely superb.
I would totally grow fat there, not like I already am not.PLUS, THERE'S KRISPY KREME (is that what its called?I dont remember.along those lines) IN JAPAN.it sells the best donuts.ever.
looks like i miss a whole lot of japanese stuff.I wonder why i was never born in japan.LOL.
and way to go connie, you're on the way to being ano.i applaud you for that.cos i kinda gave up on my ano diets since i have absolutely no motivation and I cant be bothered.
oh, DBSK ACTIVITIES ARE SUSPENDED FOR 2 MONTHS.
ohkay good thing lah, i wont get distracted.i swear sm is biased. @#$%^&*#@$%^&*(#$%
This is a shit long post full of all my random rantings.
Bye everyone.
Btw i know i seem to have VERY random blog titles.But seriously, more than often, they mean something.heh.

A little bit of this, A little bit of that .

2009-08-29T23:49:00.000+09:00

Hello Everyone.
Life's been pretty dead lately.
Teacher's day performance on monday.ohgawd.
the first rehearsal was horrible.
But the second was tons better and we even added in new things subsequently this morning.
Hope we could pull it off nicely on monday!
AND PEOPLE, I DONT CARE OHKAY.
EVEN IF ITS NOT FUNNY, JUST LAUGH.
ohkay lah, you dont have to if you're not my friend.
but if you are, YOU BETTER. *gives death stare*
right, today met qian and went to tampines.
there's this pan fried pork bun thingy which is just superbbbbbbbbbbb.
its so goooooooooooood.its like xiao long bao but the skin is the pan fried version
yum!gotta buy that for my mummy and sister soon.
oh oh, i saw this really cute/pretty tote billabong bag.
its the sort thats big enough for school. *jumps* i kinda want it!
and like there was this other beige/cream coloured billabong zipped hoodie which is really sweet.and the material is really soft and comfortable.
hmmm i want it too.but i dont know if i should get it.my mummy says i can buy it if i want.
ohkay this is so random, i dont see why you would care if im buying it or not.
Anyway, just a list of stuff to remember:
1.chem tuition fees
2.bring necessary stuff (lipstick/masks etc) for monday + outfit
3.need to be in school at 6.45am on monday
4.TEACHER'S DAY PRESENTS?!
5.some drama card thingy.but i dont get whats happening.
6.GOING BACK TO SAC ON MONDAY OR NOT?????!!!!!! rahhhhh.
7.cut fringe/trim hair i dont know.
8.new watch?!!!!!!but anything branded (that means swatch/levis/adidas etc) is all about 100+ WAH LAO.and casio seems sooooo over already even though I'm still wearing mine.
9.new shoes and water bottle! anyone seen any nice shoes let me know kayyyy. the one i friggin want is so damn ex 80+ to 90+ and i soooo wont wear to school.pffffft.
10.collect money from ms sueyyyyyyyyyyyyy.i keep on forgetting.tsk.
ohkay, thats about it.im ranting so much these days.i wont be suprised if people stop reading my blog or something.bye everyone.

Hope To The End .

2009-08-27T20:57:00.000+09:00

Blogger is being retarded again.pffft.
Anyway, What's happening tomorrow:
1. School 7.25-9.35
2. WR 10.25-12.05
3. SUBWAY LUNCH WITH DIONNE ;DDD 12.05-1.00?
4. Arranging tables for ACES Day (house comm only) 1.30-1.50pm? [the muslim dudes wont be around.HOW ARE THE GIRLS GONNA CARRY?!so heavy!?!?!?!?!?!?!?]
5. Extra lectures:
Econs 2.30-4.30pm [take down chapters/new format for promos]
Chem 3.30-4.30 [ going through chem test]
6. DRAMA DRY RUNNNNNN. [bring outfit.but....WEAR WHAT?!] til 7? [ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.]
7. Ice cream date with Qian at Swensens? [ ;D ]
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SO MUCH FOR FREE TIME ON FRIDAYS TO STUDY.
ohkay, fine I wasted the free time I had on my previous fridays.
Now, time is getting back at me.ughhhhh.
Falling behind study timetable. --> no study 'direction' --> useless/pointless
ohgawddddd, my life is in SHAMBLES.PFFFFFT.
ohkay and it is partly the fault of my lack of motivation and drive to study.
whatevs.This is depressing.
Not forgetting that my life is 11234567832145678239215678x a million boring right now.
Ohkay, I know I may not be the only one but I still feel the pressure and intensity weighing me down.Besides, does it hurt to just complain once in awhile on my blog?!
No right? "quotes from chrystal lesson today: blogging helps you release stress"
[wow, i cant believe i actually remembered that,considering how i was just complaining that chrystal was just a waste of my time and singing chinese songs with dionne/zhi han/zing/(khairiah tried to join in too.LOL.)]
Seeing everyone mug hardcore just makes me feel even worse.
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AND GUESS WHATTT, WHILE I WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW SUCKY I FEEL RIGHT NOW.
I JUST RECEIVED A MESSAGE FROM MASYITAH ABOUT BUCKING UP/STUDYING AND ALL THE YADA YADA.
HAHAHAHAHA.I SWEAR, ITS EITHER ITS COINCIDENCE OR SHE'S PYSCHIC.
Btw I have to stop fangirling over jaejoongggggg.
Its obsessive and it takes up my time! );
UGH.How I wish i was a pretty korean girl with pretty hands.ESP PRETTY HANDS.
HAHAHAHAHA.that might seem random to some.but few might get it.LOL.
sounds like it makes no sense right?ha ha.actually it does.AND IT DOES A WHOLE LOT. ;D
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zohmygawd.must hand up proposal for open house publicity to siddiq tonight.
!@#$%^&*(#$%^&*(#$%^&*(
I hope all the pub i/cs come online.HEY PRETTY LADIES AND ONLY GUY.WHERE ARE Y'ALL?!

Doushite kimi wo suki natte shimattandarou?

2009-08-23T01:44:00.005+09:00

Hello everyone.

Well, recently my life has pretty much been about The Dude above.

Yes, thats Kim JaeJoong from DBSK.

Other than that, nothing much else is happening.

Ohkay, how bout the fact that my work is snowballing because I didnt follow according to my study timetable ):

andddddd, everyone is just easily irritable these days.

We're all stressed.We all need a break.

Somebody save us.

Btw the title of my blog just means , Why did I end up falling for you? (in jap)

Nope.No meaning behind it.Its just the title of a dbsk song I'm addicted to right now.

Thanks to danial.I swear the music video is good and the lyrics are awesome.

Plus, jaejoong's voice is just soothing.

Its so horrible that I'm into a boy group just 40 days before promos.

ugh, someone kill me.

Always Keep The Faith

2009-08-20T20:44:00.001+09:00

For all the dongbang (cassies) fans out there ,
TOMORROW IS THE LAWSUIT AGAINST SM.
CRITICAL SITUATION. *warning alarm goes off*
I almost had a heart attack when my sister said that they might disband.
But, to double check and find out what really is going on, i googled and went to read all the fan sites updating news about them.
So, any other concerned fans could just pop over to these websites and have a read to clear up all the confusion:

http://dbsknights.blogspot.com/2009/08/info-cassie-explanation-always-have.html?showComment=1250771018843#c1860968449311893973

http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=99029

Both are separate articles but generally about the same content.
Just copy and paste the links.I SWEAR I FELT SO RELIEVED.
BECAUSE IF DBSK WERE TO EVER DISBAND I MIGHT JUST SLIT MY WRIST.
I ONLY BECAME THEIR FAN RECENTLY?!THEY CANNOT DO THIS TO ME!
and so they wont lah.hopefully.

For those who have no idea whats happening, in short,
what happened was that the dbsk members signed a 'slave' contract with SM company.
They are being ill-treated so the 3 members, junsu, jaejoong and yoochun filed a lawsuit against them so that they could correct areas of the contract which were being unfair to them.
Even though the other 2 members did not file a lawsuit, they also do agree that SM company is treating them badly.
DBSK STILL STAND AS ONE AND WILL NOT DISBANDDDDDDDDD.
The only problem is if they lose the lawsuit, i think they will have to pay a hell load of money.
I'm not too sure what else will happen though.
BUT keep in mind that DBSK is THE MOST popular korean boy group, having made it to the top spot in the japan oricon charts TWICE, which has not been done in 24 years!
They have many other numerous achievements.Besides, their MIROTIC album was a HUGE MEGA SUCCESS.and they have a fanbase of OVER 800,000 PEOPLE.that's a shitload amount.
SM can't be THAT dumb to disband them.
Because whats DBSK without junsu, jaejoong and yoochun, practically the better singers out of the 5.
DBSK WONT BE DBSK WITHOUT THE 3 OF THEM.
Plus SM always had a reputation for ill-treating their artists.BASTARDS.
I HOPE YOU GUYS ROT IN HELLLLLLLLLLLLLL.BASTARD TO THE FREAKING CORE MAX HELLLLLLLLL.

I have no idea where that came from, but stuff like that comes out when im extremely annoyed/pissed.
Its pretty easy to google about whats happening, so meanwhile, ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH.

I cant believe I'm such a fan of kpop right now.I practically have only been listening to korean songs for the past few weeks.LOL.
ANYWAY, today we did AAR (after action review) for funfestique and crafting of callisto's vision.
AND WE HAD AN EPIPHANY TODAY.
You know how everyone knows that callisto's symbol is a blue bird right?
well, WE found out that its actually a blue EAGLE.
YES, AN EAGLE.HOW FRIGGIN COOL IS THAT?!AND NO ONE KNEW BECAUSE THE PICTURE BESIDE OUR HOUSE SHIRT JUST LOOKED LIKE A BIRD AND DOES NOT RESEMBLE AN EAGLE AT ALL.
I mean the difference betwen a bird and an eagle is pretty SIGNIFICANT.
An eagle represents honor, bravery, courage and spirit.
SO, LO AND BEHOLD, there came about callisto's vision:

To be undisputed masters of the sky, with excellence and greatness in our hearts, placing love and sportsmanship above all else.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.DOESNT IT JUST SOUND SO AWESOME AND GIVES YOU GOOSEBUMPS ALL OVER?????!!!!!! ;DDDDDD
WE, THE CALLISTO HOUSE COMM, WILL HAVE TO MAKE IT TO J2 NEXT YEAR.THE WHOLE HOUSE COMM INTACT.
BY WHICH, I DONT MEAN ADVANCE.I MEAN PROMOTE.AND PROMOTE WITH FAIRLY REASONABLE RESULTS AT LEAST.
We must all stick together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That aside, i got to study and internalize my history tutorial for my history essay test tomorrow.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.Got to get my head into studies.
Plus i have a GP project and some house comm board to do tomorrow.pffffft.
There goes my studying time. :/
Bye everyone!